Procrastination

I haven’t been writing as much as I want to. After my winter break, I fell headfirst into the new semester and I don’t think I’ve been adjusting that well. I took more advanced classes this school year than I have before (which doesn’t really make sense since I’m a senior now), and it’s been really hard. AP Music Theory was a lot more work than I thought it would be, but I’m okay with that because it’s not really an academic class. AP Statistics is a whole other thing. It’s such a particular class and even though I get the overarching ideas, there’s always minutia that I miss and I just can’t figure out how to study that. Physics doesn’t seem like a class that I would find too hard (it’s mostly just algebra) but the way the problems are worded is so confusing to me and there’s so many variables that you have to keep track of. On top of that, yearbook has been stressful and confusing as well, so I basically have no time to do anything.

That’s a bit of a lie. I find ways to procrastinate all the work I need to do (writing this is one of them!) and I can’t find a way to break that cycle. I’ve read all those studyblr tips to stop procratinating, but I feel like those are more for people who are already really organized and on top of things. Like that thing with putting gummy bears at the end of every paragraph so you have a treat throughout your reading? I would just eat all the gummy bears all at once. I’ve read that it’s good to break up all your tasks into smaller tasks that you can accomplish quickly, but after I finish a few I decide that that’s enough work for a day, even though it’s not even close.

I’ve never figured out a way to fix this for myself. I was a straight A student last year, but that was because the only advanced class I took was AP Bio and I really liked learning it. I can only see this getting worse when I’m in college, so I don’t know what to do with this. Does anyone have any tips?

Admissions Anxiety

I finished all my college applications yesterday!

As exciting as that is, I also realized that there’s absolutely nothing I can do now to help my chances at getting into my top schools. I wasn’t that bothered about it but my mom had a “be prepared for rejection” talk with me and now I’m worried I won’t get in.

I’ve already had a couple early admissions from some safety schools but they’re not great schools and they’re all really close by. I want to be able to leave! My dream school is in Boston, all the way across the country.

It’s just a couple of months of waiting for me, but I feel like I’m going to be a bit grumpy for the duration of it. I haven’t dealt with that much rejection in my life, and I’m not sure how I’ll handle it if I have to.

Does anyone have tips for forgetting about it?

First Post

So I’ve started a blog! I don’t totally know where I’m going with this but I’m excited to start. I like makeup and fashion and skincare so I’m guessing a lot of my posts are going to be about that. I’m in my senior year of high school and I’m planning on going to college to major in biology (or psychology? or child development? I want to be a pediatrician who knows how I’ll get there). I have a cat named Mitzy (she has an instagram! @mitzy_thekitzy), and I like singing and playing the piano and ukulele. I don’t really know where this post is going. Bye for now!